Even though my sis and me fight she knows I love her. We’ve gotten in a lot of fights lately but have also grown closer. I know I can trust her but sometimes I still feel lonely, anyway I know that she can understand me because we go through the same experiences but at the end we react to them differently. I LOVE YOU!<3
March 2011
Everything has been a blur. I am finally myself but I feel weird, I feel like this is not how I am supposed to act. I don’t know I guess I am just confused. I have discover who my real friends are and I am happy for that but I have also grown apart from the ones I thought were my friends. I find it very hard to trust people because from experience I know they will sooner or later do something, and I will get hurt. I don’t know I just wish there was someone I can trust.
is it weird that I like my sis status? lol
I’m bored and I want to say what she says lol
time feels like the wind
I’m really tired and I want to go to sleep already but I don’t know what is stopping me. >.<
Today was a good day! I woke up at 4:00 am but was excited for the new beginning. It was multicultural day which made me happy because I bought food :D My friends and I performed in the quad which was nerve racking, I messed up a lot. I was so nervous that I forgot the steps but kept dancing anyway. Oh well, at least it’s over, had a lot of fun when I was practicing with friends :D Bought Pad Thai, egg rolls and thai ice tea <3 and got a free torta :D Now I have to clean my room and read 3 chapters for Art History and 100 pages for Lit. >.< I’m so tired I just want to go to sleep, but I have to do what I have to do. Great Day<3(:
Today was a good day. Woke up at 8:00 am >.< In my opinion people should not wake up before 10:00 am on the weekends. Washed my clothes and got ready to go to work, when I got there I felt so sleepy; my eyes just wanted to close but I knew they couldn’t. I worked in the kid’s section which was ok, I love watching babies (: After work went to Michelle’s house to rehearse for the dance, man it’s hard >:) but very fun (: I was trying to do splits and fell on my butt >.< haha it was funny. Now I am here in my room about to do an essay or at least try, I’m so sleepy so I’m watching “Black Swan” to see if it can keep me awake. Wish me luck(:
I do. but you would have to ask my friends. I considered myself to be a good friend because I listen, give advise and I am there when they need me but maybe to them is different. I really hope they think I am a good friend
I worry so much about everything but I’m not motivated to take care of those things. I wish I could go back to my childhood where I did not have to worry about school, friends, and my FUTURE. That’s what worries me the most, I don’t know what I want, I feel like I am not prepared and I’m scared to make mistakes and regret them for the rest of my life. I wish there was someone who can give me the answers to all these questions.